My Relationship with God
So I just finished doing a ‘Dorm Devo’ with a group of friends at the Bible Conference Centre I’m working at this summer and it was really good. We read John 20, which talks about Jesus rising from the dead and how He needed to prove that it was actually Him to everyone by showing His wounds.
This and two other sermons/sessions that I have been to in these past few days have really made me think about my relationship with God and how weak it is compared to all these people I know. They all have all these God stories and times where they have actually experienced God and His work in their lives. This has truly made me realize how much I want that and why I don’t have it.
I realized that I keep putting off getting to know Him, praying, reading my Bible and going to Church, etc. and that if I keep doing that then nothing will happen.
I don’t know how long I have left in this world.
So who am I to put that off?
I could die tomorrow and my soul would be damned for eternity because I put off truly accepting the Lord and following Him in the way I lived and acted all my life.
I know I am a sinner and I have done stupid things in my past and I will keep doing stupid things and I know that God will always forgive me when I ask for it because He loves me perfectly. But I fear the Lord because I also know that when I die, He will be the judge of me and decide what my fate is. I am scared that I am only dedicated to Him halfheartedly and not truly worthy of spending eternity with Him in Heaven.
Because I know I don’t deserve it.
My goal for my life right now is to build that strong relationship with Him that I see in all these other people here and to use this opportunity that I have here to grow closer to Him and to live the way He wants me to live.
Right now I just want a better life that includes more of Him in everything: my daily routines, when I worry or need help, when people I love need help, when I eat, the beginning and end of each day, how I spend my money, how I dress, the music I listen to, videos I watch, etc.
Anyways, this is just something I just felt the need to express and something that has been on my mind a lot for pretty much the past year and a bit.
Last night I promised God that I would work on strengthening our relationship so this is my first step: Telling my goal to the world.